|| breath

I gasp under the weight I wear

crashing waves of disrepair

In over my head with memories

losing touch and guarantees 

I fight the pressure once again

one breath away from caving in

the crashing sound of my single tear 

when I see the spaces drawing near 

walls rising eagerly 

cement being poured;
 to make it easy 

habits recycled and stored

to make it fine, emotionally

like a favorite song and a common chord 

maybe things will change eventually 

reaching outward through the night

wishing you would come rewrite 

the story I lived and the pain I recite 

the song I wrote and the hurt I invite 

the choice again, to fight or flight

I'll tell myself to be alright 

and I'll just keep walking towards the light 

Its hard for me to consign

when I always say I'm fine 

and its easier to decline 

when your arms are open wide

but you draw nearer still

and i can't grasp the reason why

when i tell you I'm fine

my hate is yours 

and your mercy is mine 

i breath you in again
you fill my lungs
like oxygen
like a gift of life
and the will to fight
your strength in sight
and your hope inside

still you give me breath

and i can't grasp the reason why
my wounds are yours
and your love is mine
even when I pretend I'm fine
my pain is yours
and your breath is mine