|| always

I run, I stumble, always seeking
I worry, I wonder, always dreaming

change is on my heels
despair is in my hand
healing calls me forward, but shame is on my shoulder
draining me of my strength to stand.

I cry, I question, always fighting

will I always be alone?
will I ever be alive?
will I always be too lost to see?

silence is the consistent answer
echoing through the void inside me

I trip, I fall, always breaking

I long to be washed clean
take these layers far from me

this desert is deceiving
stealing, draining, never filling
this darkness is entrapping
numbing, tricking, never giving
I long to be set free

I've been so blind to You

You chase, You call, always rescuing
my ever present help.

You fill, You fight, always caring
My ever loving Father

You have always been with me
By my side
Through the night
Whispering
Reaching
Guarding

  Always